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Oct. 28th, 2002 11:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
semperfionaKirk just emailed to say he goes for surgery tomorrow evening to have his kidney removed. I hope--I don't really feel right saying "pray", but anyway--that everything goes well and this turns out to be the only operation required.
He means so much to me, even though there's a distance that has formed between us. I tried calling him several times since receiving the first news, and never managed to reach him. Now I just have to wait for the post-surgery update.
We used to be so close...I still tear myself up over what happened and blame myself for it all. If only I had let well enough alone...So very many things would be different. I don't even really know what to do to even try to restore the friendship as it was.
Now though, it's a struggle through fear just to call him. The longer I don't get through, the harder it gets, too.
He means so much to me, even though there's a distance that has formed between us. I tried calling him several times since receiving the first news, and never managed to reach him. Now I just have to wait for the post-surgery update.
We used to be so close...I still tear myself up over what happened and blame myself for it all. If only I had let well enough alone...So very many things would be different. I don't even really know what to do to even try to restore the friendship as it was.
Now though, it's a struggle through fear just to call him. The longer I don't get through, the harder it gets, too.
