Spiraling down

I don't really know why but I can feel myself getting more and more depressed today.
Tears seem only a breath away and all I keep thinking is that love is hard, love hurts and wouldn't it be easier to just give it all up? Give up on love and just be Rosa's mommy and nothing else because I don't deserve anything else or am too stupid to know how to keep it. Nobody wants to be around me once they get to know me, I'm a damned idiot at relationships, I can't read body language to know when someone wants affection or wants to be left alone for a while or just wants a little actual space. I suck.

What a surprise.

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Thanks to all who offered hugs and reassurances etc. I don't have the mental or emotional energy to answer anyone personally right now, but I will soon. I really appreciate the thoughts, and I'll get through this.