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[semperfiona]

I'm terrified of going to Black Road this year. I'm afraid I'm going to be left out because things are still not settled between dj and I, and he and Liss seem to have made close friends with Matt and Liz but I hardly know them. Seeing Liss has always been one of the biggest reasons I go to the con in the first place.

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But you have to!

[(Anonymous)]

I understand being nervous... sometimes it's weird not knowing if you're going to be the odd man out. But please come! Your big sister who has never been to a Con before needs you! At least you've met the people there, and will have a clue what's going on... I'll only know you and Quinn and DevilMuse. I'm going to need all the support I can get, muddling through. ::grin::

~ Eponine

Re: But you have to!

[semperfiona]

I still intend to come, I'm just nervous. Worse than the first one I went to, actually: weirdness with people I know and care about is worse than just not knowing anybody. But I'll be there. If I have to tie myself up and mail myself parcel post.

Re: But you have to!

[ex-devilmus.livejournal.com]

You do have to go. I, for one, will cry if you don't. I don't know whats up with you and DJ, but that doesn't affect the fact the you are my friend/mother/sister. And, yes, I have gotten quiet close with Matt and Liz, but honestly, why does that matter? It just means you'll have to get close to them during the Con, if you do at all. Just because I am friends with someone doesn't mean you can't be, or even have to be. My relationship with you isn't impacted by my friendships with other people. Hell, you and DJ could actively declare war on each other and you'd still be my mommy. So I still love you, and I want you there no matter what.

Re: But you have to!

[ex-devilmus.livejournal.com]

And since I know you will see my rant on my LJ, let me calm you down right now. No, its not about you. I want to give you love and advice. Someone who is going unnamed is pissing me the fuck off and provoked that. But I love you and want to help you out with this whole DJ/ACN stuff. I'm just tired and bitchy and I want the semester to be over.

Re: But you have to!

[semperfiona]

Thanks hon, because I probably would have gotten worried. Anyway, it's not that I mind you being close with anybody in the world, I just...oh, I don't know...somehow it will all work out. I was having a bad day and needed to get those feelings off my chest. I'd been fighting myself not to write it because I didn't want to make anyone feel responsible for my feelings--and I still don't. But now that I finally wrote it down I'm not feeling as miserable as I was, so that's good.

[harlequinaide.livejournal.com]

I don't want things to be unsettled between us by then. I don't have the space for psychodrama right now, with school taking up so much of my existance. But I haven't forgotten about you, and about things that need fixing with us. The only way TBR will be bad is if you and I play the same games we did at ACN. I know I'm going to be spending a lot of time with Curgoth and Lizard, but that doesn't have to hurt you. There will be lots of people there for you to play with, if you let yourself. I have faith in you, I know you'll be okay. I also know that I will be more straightfoward about dealing with it. If both of us can manage not to be passive-aggressive, we'll be golden. :-)

Remeber, we're the red-heads. No matter how much in-fighting we do, we're still better than any of Oberon's other children.