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[semperfiona]

Mom and Dad called from Peru last night. We talked for quite a while about this and that, but I always end up feeling on edge when I talk to them. There are so many things about my life that they don't know and never can know, things that really really matter to me that I can't share with them. And that hurts. I feel disconnected and lost because I don't have a family I can really trust and rely on. I know they would say they'd do anything for me, and they'd even mean it, but their concept of what that might mean just doesn't encompass me. I'm so completely antithetical to the fundamentalist Christians that they are. But they don't really know that. I think, if anything, they think I'm sort of a lazy or lapsed Christian. And I can't even talk to them about that, let alone the rest of my life.

I'm working on finding a local circle of friends that I can rely on instead, but it seems that I haven't yet found them. I want somebody who'd drop everything for me when I need them, once in a while. I'm tired of being the mother for all my friends; I want someone to mother me a little. Is that so much to ask?

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[indigobynight.livejournal.com]

Hey--I know we don't know each other very well yet...but I am always here...I make it my life's work to be a dedicated friend. ~s~ Just ask my other friends. If you ever need anything...just ask. I'm there. And maybe when we get to know each other better you won't even have to ask. ~s~

Rebecca

Friends are all around....

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

Virtual friends are good, too. And actually, I'm only a few states over. If you'd like, drop me a line sometime.

Re: Friends are all around....

[semperfiona]

Where are you?

Re: Friends are all around....

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

I'm in Indianapolis (well, Fishers, IN to be exact.)

Whoa yeah...

[(Anonymous)]

A friend of mine has this problem with, amusingly enough, me. She's a heavy-duty Wiccan, and her mom -- who works with me on public access telelvision -- has no idea whatever.

So, when she runs across me at coffee night at the local X-friendly bookstore, she the cognitive dissonance is deafening. :-)

I know how you feel, overall, though. I often feel that way myself...
(that was originally the typo 'muyself', which is actually funny enough to put back in.)
-- j