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Just heard from Rosa's lips: "Read my lips: No new taxes!"

That is one of Ray's sayings, of the ilk which are repeated ad infinitum ad nauseam without context or even meaning.

Uggggh

I have to write four peer reviews and a self-evaluation by 11/1. I hate this stuff; it's one big reason I don't want to go into management. I don't know what to say about anyone, I don't have any supporting anecdotes whatsoever, and I feel cruel if it comes off negative and obsequious if it comes off positive. I spent half an hour working on it and then got stressed out so I played Wordshark for a while. Now I'm dreading going back to it again. What in the gods' names do I say?

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Kirk just emailed to say he goes for surgery tomorrow evening to have his kidney removed. I hope--I don't really feel right saying "pray", but anyway--that everything goes well and this turns out to be the only operation required.

He means so much to me, even though there's a distance that has formed between us. I tried calling him several times since receiving the first news, and never managed to reach him. Now I just have to wait for the post-surgery update.

We used to be so close...I still tear myself up over what happened and blame myself for it all. If only I had let well enough alone...So very many things would be different. I don't even really know what to do to even try to restore the friendship as it was.

Now though, it's a struggle through fear just to call him. The longer I don't get through, the harder it gets, too.